I stare at her picture, as though Im in a room full of mirrors.
Days seem like weeks. Weeks seem like years.
Rationality and Madness are separated by a line that is taunting.
Our souls were intertwined. Her abscence is daunting.
Tears blind my eyes, and seem to fill up my days.
Forgive me please. My mind's in a haze.
I see what youre saying, but my view is somewhat distorted.
Im not feeling loved. Im feeling less than supported.
I want to move forward, but lack the strength to take a step.
I loved her so much. I never realized the depth.
I want to be positive and surrounded by those that I love.
I want to be with her. I want to look down from above.
I should be gaining strength, but Im only growing weaker.
I cant see the light. My future appears bleaker.
My eyes are so heavy, but fight the weight to stay open.
Somethings not right. Something feels broken.
Sleep is inviting, as it calls out loudly and tempts me.
My thoughts are so full. My soul is just empty.
Please be patient, until the answer becomes clear.
Im still holding my angel very near.
Today is the wedding anniversary of my Dad and Patty. As I reflect on how hard it has been for me to have lost Patty this past year, I realize that I sometimes lose sight of how much harder it has been for my Dad. Feelings are like roller coasters, and no one has the answers to how to respond. Recently, I just sat down and tried to think about what he may be feeling. In return, I came up with this. Though she isn't here physically any longer, Im still going to give a shout out….. “Happy Anniversary”!…. Because it just feels right!